ゞthe days of my life〃

和墮云慕

耶紗慕禰

the days of my life- 及96准


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o edit certain of the reminiscences of Mr。 Allan Quatermain。 To be honest�察�these have amused me not a little�察�perhaps because I always find it easy to ain�察�who�察�after all�察�is only myself set in a variety of imagined situations�察�thinking my thoughts and looking at life through my eyes。 Indeed there are several subjects with which I always find it not difficult to deal ! for instance�察�Old Egypt�察�Norsemen�察�and African savages。 Of these last�察�however�察�I prefer to write in the pany of the late Allan Quatermain。
At the time of which I am now speaking�察�the early niies�察�it was�察�however�察�otherwise�察�for then�察�being much younger�察�I wearied of fiction and longed for the life of action to which I had been bred and that�察�indeed�察�is native to my character。 In truth�察�the dislike and revolt of my heart in those days still haunts me as a kind of nightmare which is perhaps sufficiently amusing to relate。
Many people have their favourite dreams�察�and within the last year or so I have developed a very fair specimen of this class of illusion which es to me in an oft´repeated vision of the mind。 Who does not know that order of dream wherein we seem to move among the dead and in their pany�察�with eager yet trembling feet�察�to try the cold waters of the stream of Death��
Well�察�through the ivory gates of such a dream as this at times I seem to see my spiritual heritage spread large before me in a world of pictured silence。 There�察�at the back of the picture�察�rises the mighty cliff whereon�察�at intervals�察�the great golden figures�察�which I take it are images and not alive�察�seem to keep watch and ward over the illimitable lands beneath�察�while between them�察�also at intervals of scores or hundreds of leagues�察�pour the cataracts gathered I know not whence。 In a fold of that cliff lie the blue waters of the Holy Lake�察�surrounded by wide cedars and huge�察�immemorial pines that spring two hundred feet without a bough and�察�at their crown�察�end always in a single bent plume of green�察�as though up on high some strong wind shaped them with a steady hand。 Along the foot of the cliff runs a great river that�察�like the Nile�察�floods the lands at certain seasons�察�and makes them bear a hundredfold。 Winding almost at right angles from the mountain slope�察�it flows across the boundless plain�察�past a white and wonderful city whose domes and palaces I only see from far away�察�for here my guide has never led me。 There on its banks soar gracious palms�察�there willows weep�察�there spread aspens with leaves just about to quiver�察�and there�察�through the sparse woodlands�察�roam the wild things of the New Creation�察�seeking their food from God and fearing no hurt from aught that serves Him。 Facing this river�察�to the right as I see it�察�but far across the plain�察�are lovely mountains not so very lofty�察�where�察�from the other river of the lake�察�amidst slender ferns�察�rush waterfalls that descend in bursts of stirless spray。
There�察�too�察�in the east ! can it be the east�察�I wonder�拭 � is the very well and fount of light�此�a soft but radiant light that casts no shadow�察�since it grows and flows above�察�beneath�察�around�察�and everywhere。 Its shape is that of a luminous fan。 While the day increases ! how long that day is I do not know ! so does the glory of that fan extend till it fills all those celestial skies�此�till it bends across them beyond the mighty cliff where stand the golden guards�察�as in the funeral paintings of Old Egypt the image of the goddess Nout bends across the heavens and holds the earth in her embracing arms。 Then�察�as at length the night draws on�察�this wondrous fan folds itself again to a cluster of jewelled stars�察�large as young moons and of every lovely hue�察�varying from that of a kind of shining blackness to those of steel blue�察�and scarlet�察�and red fire�察�that girdle the firmament with a glittering belt as might do the Milky Way drawn near。
Overlooking all these wonders�察�at the foot of the cliff�察�beyond the borders of the lake but at a lower level�察�in this fantastic dream of mine stands a strange and silent house built for me by hands that I have known。 I see its central hall�察�where all those I loved or love in life steal in and out。 I see a certain chamber�察�low and large�察�which overlooks the dreaming landscape�察�and�察�more nearly�察�the walks of garden trees hung with bells of white and purple blossom�察�with unknown�察�golden fruits and creeping strands of vine。 Standing in the recessed doorway of this chamber�察�I see in its far corner�察�seated at a desk above a covered terrace�察�myself�察�younger than I am now�察�wearing some sort of white garments and bending over the desk at work�察�with papers spread before me。
At the sight a kind of terror seizes me lest this fair place should be but a scented purgatory where�察�in payment for my sins�察�I am doomed to write fiction for ever and a day��
^At what do I work�拭院�I ask�察�alarmed�察�of the guide who�察�shining steadily�察�stands at my side and shows me all。
^You write the history of a world ̄ ��or was it ^of the world ̄�拭 � I am not sure���察�is the answer�察�and in my dream I breathe again。
For truly it would be a horrible fate to be doomed from aeon to countless aeons to the position of romance。
Of course what I have set down is but a fancy such as might e to an imaginative child。 Still�察�that landscape�察�which I know as well as�察�if not better than�察�any on the earth�察�has charms and glories of its own。 Therefore I have wasted half an hour of my time and some few minutes of my reader¨s in attempting very briefly to describe that which in truth no words can carry。
I confess that in any other life I should prefer some change of employment�察�but if I should be doomed to write there I hope that the subject´matter of my toil may�察�as in the vision�察�prove to be not fiction but history�察�which I love。 In all the worlds above us there must be much history to record。 Also there must be much good work to do�察�which is fortunate。 At least I can conceive no idle heaven ! where it ^is always afternoon。 ̄ To me such a place would be the reverse of heaven。 To me happiness and work well done�察�or service faithfully acplished�察�are words with a like meaning。
And now�察�with many apologies�察�I will turn to mundane things again。 Before I do so�察�however�察�as I dare say I shall allude to the subject no more�察�I will add a word on the general matter of the writing of romances。 This�察�I gather�察�from remarks that have been made to me and many letters that I have received�察�is supposed to be a very easy art�察�if indeed it is worthy to be classified under that high name。 As a matter of fact it is difficult。 In a novel�察�as the word is generally understood�察�the author may discourse upon a thousand topics�察�nothing�察�or at any rate very little�察�is barred to him。 He may burrow in the obscene depths of human nature�察�he may discuss politics�察�religion�察�metaphysics�察�socialism�察 �love ̄ in all its forms�察�the elemental or artificial divisions between the sexes ! oh� �what is there that he may not and does not discuss�拭�Nothing that appears in the columns of the daily papers�察�nothing that is within the range of the human intellect�察�lies beyond his legitimate�察�or illegitimate�察�scope。
In romance all this is different�察�the lines between which he must move are by parison extremely narrow�此�as I remember�察�Besant put 
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