Their expressions of consternation and disappointment made Harry feel ashamed。 It had been a nightmarish experience; seeing the dementors gliding out of the must in the distance and realizing; as the paralyzing cold choked his lungs and a distant screaming filled his ears; that he was not going to be able to protect himself。 It had taken all Harry's willpower to uproot himself from the spot and run; leaving the eyeless dementors to glide amongst the Muggles who might not be able to see them; but would assuredly feel the despair they cast wherever they went。
〃So we still haven't got any food。〃
〃Shut up; Ron;〃 snapped Hermione。 〃Harry; what happened? Why do you think you couldn't make your Patronus? You managed perfectly yesterday!〃
〃I don't know。〃
He sat low in one of Perkins's old armchairs; feeling more humiliated by the moment。 He was afraid that something had gone wrong inside him。 Yesterday seemed a long time ago: Today me might have been thirteen years old again; the only one who collapsed on the Hogwarts Express。
Ron kicked a chair leg。
〃What?〃 he snarled at Hermione。 〃I'm starving! All I've had since I bled half to death is a couple of toadstools!〃
〃You go and fight your way through the dementors; then;〃 said Harry; stung。
〃I would; but my arm's in a sling; in case you hadn't noticed!〃
〃That's convenient。〃
〃And what's that supposed to a151 ?〃
〃Of course!〃 cried Hermione; clapping a hand to her forehead and startling both of them into silence。 〃Harry; give me the locket! e on;〃 she said impatiently; clicking her fingers at him when he did not react;〃 to Horcrux; Harry; you're still wearing it!〃
She held out her hands; and Harry lifted the golden chain over his head。 The moment it parted contact with Harry's skin he free and oddly light。 He had not even realized that he was clammy or that there was a heavy weight pressing on his stomach until both sensations lifted。
〃Better?〃 asked Hermione。
〃Yeah; loads better!〃
〃Harry;〃 she said; crouching down in front of him and using the kind of voice he associated with visiting the very sick; 〃you don't think you've been possessed; do you?〃
〃What? No!〃 he said defensively; 〃I remember everything we've done while I've bee wearing it。 I wouldn't know what I'd done if I'd been possessed; would I? Ginny told me there were times when she couldn't remember anything。〃
〃Hmm;〃 said Hermione; looking down at the heavy locket。 〃Well; maybe we ought not to wear it。 We can just keep it in the tent。〃
〃We are not leaving that Horcrux lying around;〃 Harry stated firmly。 〃If we lose it; if it gets stolena151〃
〃Oh; all right; all right;〃 said Hermione; and she placed it around her own neck and tucked it out of sight down the front of her shirt。 〃But we'll take turns wearing it; so nobody keeps it on too long。〃
〃Great;〃 said Ron irritably; 〃and now we've sorted that out; can we please get some food?〃
〃Fine; but we'll go somewhere else to find it;〃 said Hermione with half a glance at Harry。 〃There's no point staying where we know dementors are swooping around。〃
In the end they settled down for the night in a far flung field belonging to a lonely farm; from which they had managed to obtain eggs and bread。
〃It's not stealing; is it?〃 asked Hermione in a troubled voice; as they devoured scrambled eggs on toast。 〃Not if I left some money under the chicken coo?〃
Ron rolled his eyes and said; with his cheeks bulging; 〃Er…my…nee; 'oo worry 'oo much。 'Elax!〃
And; indeed; it was much easier to relax when they were fortably well fed。 The argument about the dementors was forgotten in laughter that night; and Harry felt cheerful; even hopeful; as he took the first of the three night watches。
This was their first encounter with the fact that a full stomach meant good spirits; an empty one; bickering and gloom。 Harry was least surprised by this; because be had suffered periods of near starvation at the Dursleys'。 Hermione bore up reasonably well on those nights when they managed to scavenge nothing but berries or stale biscuits; her temper perhaps a little shorter than usual and her silences dour。 Ron; however; had always been used to three delicious meals a day; courtesy of his mother or of the Hogwarts house…elves; and hunger made him both unreasonable and irascible。 Whenever lack of food coincided with Ron's turn to wear the Horcrux; he became downright unpleasant。
〃So where next?〃 was his constant refrain。 He did not seem to have any ideas himself; but expected Harry and Hermione to e up with plans while he sat and brooded over the low food supplies。 Accordingly Harry and Hermione spent fruitless hours trying to decide where they might find the other Horcruxes; and how to destroy the one they already got; their conversations being increasingly repetitive as they got no new information。
As Dumbledore had told Harry that be believed Voldemort had hidden the Horcruxes in places important to him; they kept reciting; in a sort of dreary litany; those locations they knew that Voldemort had lived or visited。 The orphanage where he had been born and raised: Hogwarts; where he had been educated; Borgin and Burks; where he had worked after pleting school; then Albania; where he had spent his years of exile: These formed the basis of their speculations。
〃Yeah; let's go to Albania。 Shouldn't take more than an afternoon to search an entire country;〃 said Ron sarcastically。
〃There can't be anything there。 He'd already made five of his Horcruxes before he went into exile; and Dumbledore was certain the snake is the sixth;〃 said Hermione。 〃We know the snake's not in Albania; it's usually with Vola151〃
〃Didn't I ask you to stop say that?〃
〃Fine! The snake is usually with You…Know…Whoa151happy?〃
〃Not particularly。〃
〃I can't see him hiding anything at Borgin and Burkes。〃 said Harry; who had made this point many times before; but said it again simply to break the nasty silence。 〃Borgin and Burke were experts at Dark objects; they would've recognized a Horcrux straightaway。〃
Ron yawned pointedly。 Repressing a strong urge to throw something at him; Harry plowed on; 〃I still reckon he might have hidden something at Hogwarts。〃
Hermione sighed。
〃But Dumbledore would have found it; Harry!〃
Harry repeated the argument he kept bringing out in favor of this theory。
〃Dumbledore said in front of me that he never assumed he knew all of Hogwart's secrets。 I'm telling you; if there was one place Vola151〃
〃Oi!〃
〃YOU…KNOW…WHO; then!〃 Harry shouted; goaded past endurance。 〃If there was one place that was really important to You…Know…Who; it was Hogwarts!〃
〃Oh; e on;〃 scoffed Ron。 〃His school?〃
〃Yeah; his school! It was his first real home; the place that meant he was special: it meant everything to him; and even after he lefta151〃
〃This is You…Know…Who we're talking about; right? Not you?〃 inquired Ron。 He was tugging at the chain of the Horcrux around his neck; Harry was visited by a desire to seize it and throttle him。
〃You told us that You…Know…Who asked Dumbledore to give him a job after he left;〃 said Hermione。
〃That's right;〃 said Harry。
〃And Dumbledore thought he only wanted to e back to try and find something; probably another founder's object; to make into another Horcrux?〃
〃Yeah;〃 said Har